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yuri_plisetsky) wrote2017-05-23 02:39 pm
yuri_plisetsky) wrote2017-05-23 02:39 pm
Moscow: Rostelecom Cup, GPF Qualifer Short Program (1.08)
The Rostelecom Cup is the last event of the 2014 ISU Grand Prix of Figure Skating series. In the men's figure skating division, two competitors -- Otabek Altin of Kazakhstan and Christophe Giacometti of Switzerland -- have secured their places in the Grand Prix Final. The remaining four slots will be determined by the final standings of the six skaters competing in Moscow, based on their scores in previous ISU Grand Prix events:
- Michele Crispino (Italy): 3rd Place, NHK Trophy
- Yuuri Katsuki (Japan): 2nd Place, Cup of China
- Seung-gil Lee (Republic of Korea): 2nd Place, NHK Trophy
- Jean-Jacques Leroy (Canada): 1st Place, Skate Canada
- Emil Nekola (Czech Republic): 3rd Place, Skate Canada
- Yuri Plisetsky (Russian Federation): 2nd Place, Skate Canada
As the competitors arrive in Moscow, two particular skaters are the focus of much press and fan speculation. Fifteen-year-old Yuri Plisetsky is making his senior debut in his first major competitive event in his home country, after a strong showing at Skate Canada in Kelowna, British Columbia. At the same time, Japanese skater Yuuri Katsuki has arrived in Moscow with his coach, the long-reigning world champion Viktor Nikiforov, and based on his remarkable performance at the Cup of China in Shanghai...
...but all of this is only to be expected from the official press coverage.
On the ground, the reality is a little more complicated than that.
- Michele Crispino (Italy): 3rd Place, NHK Trophy
- Yuuri Katsuki (Japan): 2nd Place, Cup of China
- Seung-gil Lee (Republic of Korea): 2nd Place, NHK Trophy
- Jean-Jacques Leroy (Canada): 1st Place, Skate Canada
- Emil Nekola (Czech Republic): 3rd Place, Skate Canada
- Yuri Plisetsky (Russian Federation): 2nd Place, Skate Canada
As the competitors arrive in Moscow, two particular skaters are the focus of much press and fan speculation. Fifteen-year-old Yuri Plisetsky is making his senior debut in his first major competitive event in his home country, after a strong showing at Skate Canada in Kelowna, British Columbia. At the same time, Japanese skater Yuuri Katsuki has arrived in Moscow with his coach, the long-reigning world champion Viktor Nikiforov, and based on his remarkable performance at the Cup of China in Shanghai...
...but all of this is only to be expected from the official press coverage.
On the ground, the reality is a little more complicated than that.
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Aside from Victor throwing out words like that, like somehow it's as simple as that, and Yuri knows he's thinking too fast. Maybe even breathing too fast. That it's conveniently spiked at the end of half an hour of warming up, on the day when everything is a hundred ratchets tighter and higher. But. Still. He works as sipping his water slower to try and make his heart find its way back to beating at anything like a normal speed. Victor goes on, not seeming to even care -- or register? -- what he said, and at least it does give Yuri something else to respond to.
Shaking his head as he finally lowers the water bottle. Caps it, so that he can tuck it under his arm, up near his armpit, where he can use the most muscle to hold it and still move enough of his arms, to use his fingers to take one skategaurd at time in one hand, using the other to slide the snow off his blades, before hooking his guard over his blade. Answering as he reached for the second, "Nothing feels loose."
He would have been able to tell out there, because of the speed, the movement required by his turns, or the inability to take his weight in landing his triples and quads, especially, but nothing had felt off. (Nothing more than himself. Occasionally, and that was normal, too.) His boots were well worn in. His blades were still sharp enough for deep edges, so long as he took the time, even if it was only one second, all in, to do them right. Didn't get caught up in his head.
Didn't try to race too fast to correct mistakes.
Didn't make too many mistakes to not be able to come back from.
(Didn't lose Victor entirely when, or if, he lost this last round of the entire Qualifier to the Prix.)
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He steps back to let Yuri through and falls into step next to him. "Your jumps looked nice and clean. I want you to stay loose so that hip doesn't tense up and give you trouble later."
There are hours still to go, but there are ways to fill them all: walk around the Small Sports Arena, watch the other skaters and discuss the programs (or gossip about their various personal lives), get a snack, stretch out. Anything to keep Yuri happy and relaxed until it's time for him to change into his competition costume, slick his hair back, start readying in earnest.
Victor doesn't suggest taking a nap again. It hadn't worked last week, and Yuri doesn't seem to need it today, anyway. He looks a little pale, but his jumps were strong and he's focused in a way he wasn't before the free skate in Shanghai. No: weariness isn't something Victor's concerned about today. He knows Yuri is ready, has every faith that this will be an even better performance than the one offered only a bare week ago. There's no quad flip in Eros, so he doesn't have to worry about Yuri attempting a jump he hasn't yet fully mastered. The choreography and jumping passes are so well known now Yuri could almost certainly win at least silver with them in his sleep.
It's just that there are people everywhere. Reporters and representatives that he's sure he never had to deal with to this extent before, because Yakov always herded them away somewhere, coaxing with tidbits of information or threatening to blacklist them if they bothered his skaters right before a performance. They don't bother him, but Yuri gets easily flustered, so Victor is grateful that the lion's share of the attention won't come until after the performance itself.
It's getting closer.
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When one of the camera crews comes by, collecting B-roll footage to be spliced into the broadcasts, he decides to give them a bit of a show -- left hand against the wall and right leg up in a full vertical stretch, graceful and natural as if it's the easiest thing in the world. (What, can't everyone practically dislocate their hips without thinking about it?) It's something that might be expected from one of the more experienced skaters in the ladies' division, but hardly in the senior men's group, and one of the camera operators actually flinches at his flexibility. But he barely has time to glare at them properly before they're gone without a word, none of them eager or foolish enough to brave the twin dragons of Yakov Feltsman and Lilia Baranovskaya to get too close to their skater before the short program.
(Almost time. Yakov should be getting a call any minute now.)
The six men's skaters are split into two groups, and that's where chance and fate collide like a badly timed twist lift in a pair skate. Yuri's not sure which of his more infamous countrymen he must have pissed off in a previous life, but it was probably Stalin or somebody equally vindictive, because that's the only satisfying explanation for why he's ended up assigned to Group 2 with the pig and the prick. Even jamming his headphones in his ears and cranking up his music to near-maximum volume isn't enough to drown out Jean-Jacques Leroy's loud, braying voice. (Maybe if he drinks enough water, he can drown himself from the inside-out and die without ever having to hear it again.) Out of the corner of his eye, he can see the asshole Canadian applauding for some reason, saying something to Viktor and the pig that Yuri doesn't give enough of a shit about to put forth the effort of translating it to himself.
Lee. Nekola. Crispino. The pig. Then him.
Until then, he can lean against the wall with his hood up and his headphones in, and do what he should have done yesterday afternoon: pretend he doesn't know them -- any of them. They won't get anything out of him.
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Time isn't his friend. In one minute, time isn't moving at all, and he's never going to make it to tonight, because tonight is never going to get here, and in the very next, half an hour or an hour has passed, and he's going to hyperventilate because if he blinks too many times it's going to be his turn to go back on the ice right now.
It's unnerving, and it flips back and forth in his head, as the first group of the ladies takes the ice, and then the second. As the first group of the pairs skaters take the ice, and then the second. He watches some of the earliest ones, when they end up anywhere near a prompter or a tv. Even though Victor seems dedicated enough to not keeping him incredibly close to them, or at least watching him when he's watching them.
It isn't long after that the first three of their group head for the curtain, none of them returning, and Yuri checks his earplugs even though he's been switching between them and his headphones for hours. But it's silence right now. It's just the sound of the wheels in his head spinning, around and around and around, while he gets up from having been at using a roller on the lower muscles of his thigh below his hip.
It's too close really to just stay focused. He ends up back up, walking, but even walking isn't what he wants, and he ends up standing still, hands balling into the fabric of his jacket, so they won't shake, thinking through the circuit of his routine. How many beats. The lineup. What could use more focus. Losing himself in a series of deep breaths, that even if he wants them to go incredibly slow, are still a little too fast on the tail end. But that's right when he notices the flapping, clapping hands in his vision of Jean-Jacques Leroy.
Who is staring directly at him. Mouth moving through silent words. Expression expectant and triumphant.
Startling Yuri into a surprised sound as he reached for his ear plugs, apologizing. "Oh, sorry. I didn't catch that."
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It's Emil Nekola now, and then Michele Crispino next. Skaters he isn't worried about, and barely thinks about as anything other than dominos to be knocked down before Yuri's performance.
(At any other time, he would enjoy socializing with them, even if he forgot everything they said or did fifteen afterwards, but that's social. This is competition.
No matter what side of the rink wall he's on, there's nothing he cares about more for the next hour.)
Yuri is listening to music next to him, while Victor leans on the wall, arms crossed, going over everything they'll need in a continual checklist: tissues. Tissue box cover. Water bottle. Skate guards. Jacket. Gloves. Yuri's jacket. Idly flipping through what he should say to Yuri at the gate to inspire him, to motivate him. The things he needs to check: Yuri's costume. His boots. Laces. Whether he needs water or lip balm. All the last-second adjustments Yuri trusts him to make, and to make sure are set and ready.
All of which is infinitely more important than the Canadian skater –– what's his name, again? –– sauntering over with that wide, white, sharktooth grin, asking about quadruple loops. It's difficult to tell who he's trying to talk to: the words seem directed at Yuri, but the skater –– JJ? Jack, something? –– pushes right past him to beam directly into Victor's face. "Victor did the same jump at last year's exhibition."
Which is true, but it's annoying to have one of Yuri's competitor's bring it up, as if it might shatter Yuri's carefully controlled nerves. Victor has never liked this fellow much to begin with –– he's one of the few skaters he's never bothered to get to know, even though he is apparently climbing the ranks rapidly in Victor's absence –– and he likes it even less when the man –– George? Jason? –– continues. "I want to see that again!"
It would be annoying at the best of times. This is Yuri's competition, not his, and just like he'd told the reporters last night, he wants everyone to focus on Yuri, and Yuri's performance, and Yuri's progress. The never-ending digs at whether or not he'll be returning –– or even if he could return –– are growing increasingly wearying, and it's only been a week since Yuri confessed he'd been worried that Victor wanted to leave.
There's really no other response than a flat, uncaring expression, arms still crossed. "I don't recall."
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The Group 2 skaters catch the tail end of Crispino's performance, and to Yuri's mind it's nothing to write home about. He can tell that the Italian has a decent sense of the music and the story he wants to convey, but there's something weirdly stilted about it. He's obviously got something up his ass here today, and it shows -- to Yuri, it's like watching a bizarre inverse of Georgi, where it seems like they should be watching Crispino vomit his emotions out all over the ice but instead he just keeps swallowing them back and plunging ahead. But at least he finishes without choking on them, and goes to meet that sister of his over in the kiss-and-cry to wait for his scores.
It's a packed crowd in the seats, no hope of spotting individuals with any amount of ease. There are plenty of flags and banners, some professionally printed and some homemade, all just bright splashes in a sea of blurred faces. Yuri's as loose as he can be, runs through his last warmups as fast as he dares, but that restless energy is starting to build up to the point where he can't take it any longer. And yet when he clacks his way over to where Yakov and Lilia are standing, the look on his coach's face suddenly stops him cold...because it's not Yakov's usual stolid mid-competition expression. If anything, he looks oddly tired, and more than a little downhearted -- and that's where the dread starts to creep in.
'Your grandfather called me a few minutes ago,' Yakov says quietly. He pauses, and shakes his head slowly. 'He won't be able to make it here today, Yuri.'
Strange, how the blood in Yuri's veins suddenly feels like it's turned into ice water, but at the same time there's something thick and hot and heavy spreading through his chest. He barely hears himself murmuring a question that isn't a question at all:
'Dedka...you're not coming?'
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It was Victor's tone, more than anything JJ didn't ever say to him again or said to Victor, that stuck with him. Part of the cycle of his ramping heartbeat as time continued to grow shorter and shorter. The second skater of the first group already being replaced by the third, and Yuri can't entirely stand still, and he can't entirely not watch the tv. The scores. The jumps. The footwork.
(The same way he finds himself unable to not wonder everytime he finds his eyes drawn back to Victor. Victor, here. Victor, in Russia. Whether Victor thinks he's ready. Whether Victor is distracted by everything here. If he's changed his mind now that he has come home again. Whether Yuri, actually, is ready. Victor's all too elusive calm, and the cold, door shutting, rejection in those words he'd said earlier.
The tone Yuri recognizes, if not why, and now is not the time to ask.
Now is not the time when he thinks he would make much sense.)
There's no time to ask, and no way to keep it center and front in his thoughts. The third performer is on and it means their whole group needs to be out to prepare for their warm up. The whole of the 2nd group moving from behind the curtain to the right outside the rink for the end of Crispino's performance and its ending embrace with his sister who skated earlier. Crispino heads off the to Kiss-and-Cry with his coach and sister, and Yuri leans back against the rink, and Yuri has to wonder, before it too is forgotten the next second, what it must have been to do that together, always supported.
But it fades as fast as it forms. The same way the people near him and not near him do.
The same with the knowledge so far the ranked scores are still fifteen below his best in China.
Trying to keep his breaths even when he closes his eyes for a second, against the cheering crowd starting to blur around him. More than when he first stepped out. Score, then their warm-up, then he's on. Score, then their warm up, then he's on. It's about to start. It already had so much longer ago than this minute.
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He's a comma of black ink sloped against the rink wall, one lean line from the top of his head to the bottom of his skates. Victor is only human, but he tries to shove his appreciation for this picture (he wants it painted, he wants it emblazoned on the backs of his eyelids: his normally awkward and uncertain and endearingly mussed Yuri, slicked back into this sinuous creature) to the back, focusing instead on purely critical observation. " –– wait."
One of those laces is coming untied, and he steps quickly forward and sinks to a knee, trenchcoat puddling around him, as his gloved fingers make short work of the loosening laces. It's an unusual thing to do, but only when he stops to think about it –– he'd have taken a hand off if somebody had tried fiddling with his skates right before a competition –– but he knows Yuri.
And Yuri trusts him.
It's there in the bland way he watches Victor fix the laces, fingers tying a quick and solid knot, still leaning against the wall. There in how he meets Victor's eyes, and there's no question or worry, only firm determination, and Victor finds himself smiling back, a sharp, heated expression totally unlike his usual casual warmth.
Eros is a grenade, and Yuri is about to pull the ring out. Only the two of them know what will happen next, and Victor, kneeling here before his skater in front of live cameras and an audience of thousands and the entirety of his home country outside these few walls, is more than ready to let it all explode.
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'I had tried to call him earlier, but there was no response,' Yakov says. It's nothing like his normal brusqueness, and there's a quiet sympathy in his tone that makes the hot heaviness in Yuri's chest swell and fester like an abscess. 'But he called me back when you were finishing your warmups. He said that he was very sorry, but that he wasn't feeling very well...and he said that he would do everything he could to be here for your free skate tomorrow.' Another pause, as he studies Yuri carefully. 'If you wanted to call him back and talk to him before -- '
'No.' Yuri cuts his coach off forcefully, before Yakov can finish the suggestion. He knows his grandfather better than anyone else, and if Nikolai Plisetsky says that he's not feeling very well then the pain must be truly terrible. Almost certainly bad enough for him to have needed a full dose of the painkillers that he hates to take, which are too strong for him to drive safely at the very least. 'If he's not well, he needs to rest. It's late enough as it is; I can call him tomorrow morning, maybe.'
I won't make Dedka feel bad for taking care of himself. It's a thought he can cling to, a knife driven into place to pin his resolve firmly against his heart, lancing that toxic heaviness before it can swell even more and choke him completely. I'm not a little kid anymore, damn it -- I can take care of myself, too. I won't let him down. I'll make him proud.
(His gaze is fixed on the curtain that's drawn over the entrance, so he doesn't see the look that Yakov and Lilia exchange. Which is possibly for the best, because one look at the sadness and concern shared between them would have cracked his fragile determination possibly beyond repair.)
With the second set of skaters about to begin, starting with Japan's Yuuri Katsuki, the noise of the crowd is audible even in the anteroom. And just as Yuri is about to put his headphones back in and lose himself in his music, he starts to hear the repeated chant that he'd been anticipating all weekend: a heady and excited Vik-tor! Vik-tor! rising from the mostly Russian audience.
Just as I thought. His eyes narrow, and his mouth twitches in a mirthless half-smile in the shadow of his hood. No one cares about the pig. Hope you're happy, Coach Nikiforov -- all your hard work promoting your skater certainly paid off, didn't it?
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Victor studies him, compliments him, and then adds one word, that makes Yuri freeze. A correction of something, that Yuri doesn’t even entirely have the time to question what might have torn or detached and how they have no time, because the next second, even as the images explode in his head, one after another after another, Victor is lowering himself to the ground, to a knee, making Yuri blink confused.
As long, slim pale fingers find his laces and something flutters, more than tightens in his chest. A confused slam of butterflies and new frisson of uncertainty, freezing his stomach, that shoves out the earlier images entirely, wondering if this is even proper, no one has ever, he hasn’t ever seen, even though he doesn’t flinch. As Victor ties his lace again, before looking up at him from there, and Victor’s face is so clear there’s no room for the uncertainty either.
There’s none looking down into Victor’s face as his hands fall back.
It makes him push everything down. Or maybe Victor does it. Just this look on his face. Makes Yuri feel this surge of certainty shoving everything else back. He can do this. He can. Victor believes he can. That he can do this, and he does, never stops talking about how Yuri is only getting better and better every time they step out on the ice together or apart. He can do this. He has to.
It's almost as cathartic, as it a sprint in his chest aiming to be heart attack, to finally step out onto the ice for their six-minute warm up after Crispino’s score goes up. Still no one within fifteen points at the end of Group 1, and he needs to see even that fifteen as something to beat. To blow past. Has to find it. Holds onto with a death grip.
Barely ten minutes and he'll be on. He pushes himself. He needs to use it to his advantage. He's the person closest to the warm up round. Without a pause that will allow any cool down of his muscles or body or mind, before he is performing. He pushes himself hard. Harder. Iced air whipping his face. Ruffling against his cheeks, his ears, the skirt on his costume.
Complex turns. The combination with the toe loop. Speeding into his more complicated footwork.
Even if it's not as fast as he wants, or as broadly expansive as it will be, when not sharing the ice.
It's only seconds, it can't have been more, when the buzzer sounds again. Choking itself in Yuri's throat, as he heads for the gate with Yuri and JJ. Six minutes gone in a blink, and in half that from now he'll already be done and someone else will be on the ice. It's hardly really the pass of a minute to step off, so the everyone is officially off, and then to wait for his name. Not long enough to put his skate guards back on even. Just long enough to stand still so as not to damage his blades, feeling his heart thunder through his whole chest, pounding in his ears.
Before it's time to step back on the ice. Body a stillness that feels a single breath from shaking all over. From needing to escape into a twitching, telling, movement, requiring him to be even more still. Which only makes all of it tumble tighter, harder, faster as he comes to a gliding stop on the ice across the rink wall from Victor. While the cheering from the crowd swells loudly into a repeating chant it takes Yuri a second to place.
Victor’s name.
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Vik-tor! Vik-tor! Vik-tor! Vik-tor!
It's as familiar to him as his own pulse. A rising tide of sound he once would have directed from the center of the ice, arms raised, waving them on until the entire arena rang with his name, shouted by hundreds (sometimes thousands) of thrilled fans, each believing they could lift him to new heights simply by the power of their love.
It's as impossible for him to ignore it as it would be to ignore the sunrise. His whole life, he's been accustomed to loving his fans back the way they love him, to showing his appreciation for everything they've supported and helped him through. Even now, even without skating, still it rises, and rises, and rises, until he has to half turn and wave to them, laughing, and for just this moment, there's nothing but this. Their love for him, and his love for them.
Even when he isn't skating. They might be disappointed, but they still call his name, clapping, chanting so loudly it's almost impossible to hear anything else. It's a swell he rides up, and up, and still further up, a pleased flush on his cheeks, his gloved hand waving in wide sweeps as a response:
I hear you.
(He can't say he hasn't missed it.)
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Victor, in front of him, but turned sideways, facing not Yuri, but the audience.
They'll wish it was you.
Victor, who'd said, they wouldn't be able to resist him once he started.
Victor, who's busy waving to the crowd shouting for him. Victor, who is laughing, and not even looking at him. Victor. Not even them. (Which he expected, feared, dreaded. Even dared to admit.) Victor. Who. He'd. Hadn't he. Wondered. Said. But. If even. Victor. But something tumbles too hard in that, snapping too sharp, almost violently in denial of proof, and his hand shoots out. Fisting Victor's tie just below the knot and jerking him forward with all the force he can, between the wall under his hand and the ice beneath his feet.
It's not everything on his tongue, but when Victor's hair is nearly brushing his nose, Yuri says it anyway. His voice strangely so much calmer than anything in him suddenly feels. Like he was reprimanding a child, and not his coach. (Not his ... ) "The performance has already begun, Victor."
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It's wildly intimate, in a massive public setting, but he can't hear the chant anymore, can't hear anything anymore except a tidal rush of blood slamming his eardrums, and Yuri's voice, low and promising and seductive. Seductive. Yuri.
(He blinks at the sudden flood of golden lights, the flirtatious nip of champagne on his tongue.)
Where it had been the whole of Russia calling for him, now he can't imagine a world containing anyone but the two of them, here, now. Yuri's grip still hard on his tie. Victor doing nothing to pull away, only acquiescing.
(He hasn't done anything like this since –– )
"You're right."
Just as low, just as layered. There's so much more happening here than anything they're saying. (Yuri's mouth is only a breath away.)
It's not the time or the place, but Yuri is making it the time, the place. And the performance –– the seduction ––
Yes. It has already begun.
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It’s futile, but at the same time there’s a surge of hot, steadying, mollification curling in his gut, too. That he has Victor’s full attention (taken it from them, taken him from them) although Victor has no time to use it. He doesn’t let go of the slick fabfic fisted in his partially gloved fingers, inverting what Victor should have said to him. Taken the time to. Wanted to. Remembered. Comfort. Promise. Advice. Pointers. Inverted outward, when he leans closer, his cheek barely brushing Victor's, in his first next two words. “Don’t worry.”
More of them falling, warm and backward. “I’ll show my love to the whole of Russia.”
Then, he lets go, all at once. All movement, all force, using both of his hands to push off of the wall, and twists to make toward the center of the ice. Not looking at Victor. Not looking back behind him. The audience is still cheering. They never stopped cheering. But now it’s changed, too. There’s screams and claps more than any single word — single name — that can be heard, except for the announcement of his name on the loud speaker.
Everything catching up with him as the space widens and widens. Warmth hitting his cheeks with hot recognition. The slick heat of embarrassment. For the crowd chanting for Victor and not him, and Victor, with them and not him, and what he did because of it. Right here. Out the open. Did. Said. While his stomach tries to suddenly wobble like a loose screw.
Threatens to unspool in a way it hasn’t this whole morning and night. Hadn’t gotten that bad. Even as he waited for it. Suddenly feeling the sickening intimidation of being right. About every person out there watching him. But he can’t. He can’t not now. Not seconds away. He can’t let them intimidate him now. Here. In Russia. Not after he got this far.
Keep refusing. Keep demanding. All of them.
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It might just be the lighting.
What is certain is that Yuri looks motivated, focused, ready to go, and when the music begins –– that sultry tangle of strummed strings –– he moves with it like he owns it. (Like he's creating it.)
The pose and popped head aren't directed at Victor, this time (Victor, currently trying to swallow hard against the knot of his tie, wondering if it was this tight before). They get tossed with a flirtatious blown kiss at the panel of judges, and Victor almost laughs out loud and claps with sheer delight, because this is what Eros was always supposed to be. The playboy, blowing into town, stealing hearts left and right.
The audience is getting into it too, as the music picks up and Yuri swings into his step sequence, twisting and twirling around the ice like a licking flame. For all he'd been worried about the Russian audience, he seems more confident than ever: maybe he feels more motivated away from home, away from the pressures of performing under the eye of his hometown fans.
Victor's not sure, but either way, he's in his best form yet.
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(He knows, somehow, Victor is watching him.)
Yuri can feel it, the way he can feel the music sinking into his skin, with his eyes closed, when his hands raise and then fall, before his eyes and his hands come up. It's a different direction, but this is the performance. Seduction. Like Victor had said last time. Using his own charm, and nothing between it and the performance.
His eyes shoot on the judges table and he blows a kiss, watching all their eyes widen before he slides into faster steps and turns, giving himself to his step sequence next. Fluid and loose, but strong and smooth. It's still there. One daring moment doesn't mean those hooks aren't still in his chest. That the tension isn't a taste crawling up the back of his throat, plucking at each stretched muscle. That his thoughts stop spinning as fast as his feet, or his arms.
The knowledge only sharper and colder out here. If he loses this weekend, the Rostelecom Cup, the last Qualifier for the Prix, this two minutes of his life, right here, right now, slipping seconds as he thinks of them, may be the last time he skates this program with Victor at his side as his coach. That maybe no one in the sports area, or this country, or even the whole world watching right now, that wants him to win. The chill that lances up his spine in a turn. Makes the clap over his head, harder. Defiant.
He's the only one who can change that. He's the only one who can make that happen.
He can't think so much. He can't get caught in his head. He stretches his torso and his leg straight and long as possible through his camel spin, closing his eyes again, counting the turns, fingers locked tight. Flows through all the twists and arm movements before dropping into the flying spin. First combination sit. Again. Fingers curved around his calf, back curved, face parallel to his knee, while momentum kept him turning.
Yuri's hand switching their hold. Long enough to be clear. Then leg position, for his one required shift. One set of fingers catch and curl around his blade, to his side and his back, still crouched, still spinning. Until he pushes up with the last of his rotation and demands more speed on the first step back into the crossover coming out of it. The crowd is loud, but he can't listen to them either.
Just the music. Just the movement. Just every part of his body and training here.
Knowing where he's going. So clear he can see it, could almost reach out and sink his fingers into it, if he wasn't so focused he just blows straight through that thought, too. There's no time, and he doesn't want any. Just enough speed to throw himself into the air for the beginning of the second half of his program. The jumps that always start with his favorite. A burning clarity for a familiarity and fire that give him no doubt there.
The spread eagle that ups the difficulty because of it's required pause for holding, before he throws himself forward over his own shoulder for the triple axel. All of it sending him up and up and up, off his left outward edge, three and half times the world spins, faster than he could count or see them, and then down once more. Clean, without a wobble on his right foot and forward still. No pause for a breath. No need or want for either.
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That triple axel is as clean as he's ever seen it, and the crowd cheers, only to explode in appreciative applause at the flawless quad salchow that follows. Victor's own hands hurt from clapping, and he knows Yuri can't hear him, but he can't stop himself from calling it out: "Yuri! Amazing!"
Even better than his performance in Shanghai, and as much as Victor expected it, was certain of it, he feels a certain sense of vindicated pride to see it happening, to hear the response of the crowd. They love it, just like he told Yuri they would, but he can't care too much just yet, is getting too carried away on Yuri's jump sequence. Every element is perfectly clean, gorgeously executed. Eros –– indeed, Yuri –– has never looked this good.
(He's hardly recognizable as the skater who collapsed under the pressure of the Grand Prix Final two years ago. Not only in the difficulty of his program or the cleanliness of his execution, but his confidence. He isn't hesitating for a single second.)
The vibrant strings of Eros seem to lift him up, up, further up, twirling him like a partner, spun out again on the lines left cut by his skates into the ice.
(No matter how many times Victor sees this, he's never found a way to resist it.)
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All the same, he doesn't have to hurry. Agape doesn't hurry. He's spent all day working on slow movements, deep breaths, graceful positions, reaching deep inside himself in search of the calm and silence at the core of his piece. It's what he has to fall back on to slow his racing heart, keep his resolve in place. One foot after the other in measured, even steps.
On the ice before him is a dark, glittering vision of passion, a whirl of playful seduction like the flash of a smile, the encouraging glance over a shoulder, the twist of a beckoning hand. Triple axel, quad salchow, all the steps and turns he remembers from that too-short time in Hasetsu -- but cleaner now, sharper now, honed to point where there is as much threat as promise in its execution.
(Lilia beside him, murmuring in his ear. This is the opposing force. Odile to your Odette. Albrecht's false promise, Siegfried's broken vow, the art of the betrayer and the deceiver. You will show them the beauty and strength of true love, Yuri -- not this temporary enchantment.)
For all that he knows she's right, as the jump combination flows into the final spins, Yuri is seeing another narrative spiralling out before him, parallel to this one: the hours and hours of work that Yuuri Katsuki and his coach must have put into this piece, pushing every bone and muscle and nerve to their limits in order to reach these heights. He's refined the program this much since the Onsen on Ice event, huh? And if the noise of the crowd is any indication, they're being completely swept away by the force of it.
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Backstroking a crossover to gain the speed that will push him off the ground and have him land the salchow, landing both left and fast in the opposite direction from where he's facing. Hard and fast and clean, he can feels it even as it surges relief, and triumph, and then blows right away again, leaving only a momentary awareness of chilled air on the beading sweat rising on his skin. More things he has no time, no focus for. Because the end is coming. The last big push.
The moment reprieve from launches into a winding step sequence that requires him to move his feet faster than his breath could ever follow, and yet it feels easy. It feels perfect. It feels like he could do this for hours and hours more. Half there and half not, half a dream, flooding through him as every close, fast shifting step completes itself exactly how it's supposed to, sliding right into each next one.
Before it comes. Heading there, always heading there. Taking only enough time to ready for it through it.
Straight and straight and straight gathering speed, before he turns backwards in the three-turn and launches himself into the air by only the grace of the bare inch of metal that is his toe pick. Quad toe loop, landing the exact same way, and slamming right back off his quad and his toe pick, into a triple of the exact same jump, before the momentum can even begin flag. It too lands, without a wobble, but he has no time. No time, no time.
Sliding next into his another camel spin, but this one only long enough for the graceful, perfect line, before it drops into the second sit spin combination. Not flying this time, but a death drop. Around and around and around, at midlevel with his arms out, before it lower, tighter, coiling in and in and in faster. Speed fighting with air, giving up breathing, picking up and up and up, the tighter he coils, the harder he holds close, spinning on one blade, so close to the ground.
Holding one foot, only to let go, and thrust upward, and backward.
Not holding on now, but throwing everything off, everything away.
Himself and the whole of everything he's done. Closed in, on only himself, with the snap of his arms as the music ends. Blood pounding in his ears, through his whole body, muscles pushed to every limit, as his lungs finally catch up with the need for air at the same time as he realizes the audience is a riot of noise beyond the floodlights.
Stamping feet, screaming voices, clapping, and cheering,
a blur of waving and jumping bodies, on their feet.
All of them.
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That was perfect. Perfect. He needs a new word for it, because Shanghai had been perfect, but this was even better. Incendiary, a fickle, charming personification of passion enticing the audience with every coaxing turn of a hand or flirtatious step to fall for him, to long for him, and they have. Every one of them that Victor can see outside his focus on Yuri, now bowing in graceful acceptance of their stormy applause and collecting a few of the tokens they toss for him, is on their feet, calling out and cheering. There are so many flowers being tossed onto the ice it looks like a strange sort of rain, and maybe he'd said he didn't care what the audience thought, but he does. They all do. They live for this almost as much as for the skate itself, the brief shining moment of reward and gratification after all their hard work.
They love him, and Victor's heart has never felt this full, even when the cheers were for him.
Somehow it means more when it's for Yuri, and he might, were he inclined to, consider that feeling to be worth some further examination, but not right now, not in this moment. Yuri's skating back towards him, tired and flushed with exertion and elation, and Victor's focus is for him, alone. "Yuri!"
His gloves muffle his clapping hands, but he applauds anyway, thrilled to the core. "That was perfect ––!"
Mouth open to continue when there's a shift of motion to his right, and he looks over, bemused, to see Lilia Baranovskaya sliding Yurio's warm-up jacket off his shoulders, revealing the slinky, glittering material of his old costume. It sparkles in the light of the arena, but that's not what catches his attention: it's Yurio's expression, set into a mask of grim determination, while Victor makes a hiccupping, questioning sound. "Huh?"
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But the clock is ticking, and there's no more time for regrets. Without another word, he lets Lilia take off his jacket and gives her his skate guards. As he sheds his outer garments, he lets his training take over, and he rolls back his shoulders and lengthens his spine to carry himself with dignity and grace out onto the ice.
Except that there's someone blocking his way as he reaches the gate.
Eros. The seducer. The betrayer. The deceiver.
Something in Yuri's expression shifts, studying his opponent. It's no longer the look of a young prince steeling himself to face his execution with determined composure, but that of a swan queen prepared to banish her dark double and break the sorcerer's thrall. So he lifts his chin -- calm and regal, faintly contemptuous -- and issues the only command that he knows will be obeyed:
'Out of my way, pig.'
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The cheer goes on, filling his head even as his head feels like it might burst from the thunder of his own blood, and the thinness of his own breath. Like his breath wasn't going far enough, getting into enough of that blood. Kept running into the bottom of his lungs like a wall, while he blinks against the brightness and raises a hand to all the noise.
The only tumbling thought that they must have heard his message.
To go from the whole stadium cheering for Victor, and not cheering for him.
Bouquets start falling all around him, fluttering paper and petals, and then stuffed foods. Several sushi and shrimp and he thinks he saw a donut somewhere in the air while he was waving and it was falling to the ice, but he can't place it when he's looking for something that made it nearby, or between him and the gate. He settles for one of the pieces of sushi that looks like tuna based on the color, and the shrimp.
Skating back with them both held under an arm and against his body, back to where Victor was, back to where a look at Victor will tell him how it went, if it went as well as he hoped, as well as it felt -- but it isn't Victor who is waiting in the doorway. It's Yurio, and his eyes widened with surprise as much as suddenly reignited remembrance.
Jeweled silver and white feather, glimmering, gilt and glitter under the lights. The way this costume always looked on camera; had for that one day back in the spring in Japan. Yurio, standing there cased by it, and the new fall of the hairstyle from last time. In Canada, weeks ago. All of it, there, blinding his eyes briefly and stopping his tongue, but that's never been a problem for Yurio.
Yurio's the picture of cool, almost cold, grimness, and with it comes Yurio's familiar child's icy disdain.
The same voice as that promise from the elevator last night, except this time Yurio denigns to look at him for it.
Surprise seems to be the only thing that sticks, high in the warmth of Yuri's own cheeks and upper body and legs, everywhere, with the dawning remembrance of Yurio being next. A thing he's known since for months since Qualifiers were set, and hours since they arrived to find the performance schedules up, and only minutes ago when he'd stepped off the ice to step back on.
But it like everything else in the world had vanished on the ice.
Coming back at the glittering distance of that insult that comes from too far away to hit, as he gets out of Yurio's way through the gate, even if it puts him on his blades without his skate guards. His head and his mouth seeming to find words only as the rainbow brilliance of Yurio's back is leaving his periphery, words only for Victor even if more people hear it. "T-this is Yurio's real agape!"
The words leaving his mouth with the same kind of skipping, inflating, expanding buoyancy as he'd realized the crowd was going crazy, as he realized the Yurio was next, and with those words his mouth breaks finally, for the first time since stopping in the middle of the rink, into a smile. Warm and pleased, excitement uncurling behind it, like a cat deciding to stretch, even if Yurio means for him to feel elsewise.
He doesn't care about that at all. Elation flooding his skipping stone mind.
To see it for themselves, not on videos, how far it's come. How far Yurio has.
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He's still blinking in surprise as Yuri steps through the gate to let Yurio pass, striding as firmly as he can on thin blades, gossamer hair floating around his shoulders and chin, all ice and determination. Despite his young age, it doesn't fall as flat as it would with someone less dedicated to their focus (or image, he supposes), but it does put Victor in mind of the military training Yurio will probably be exempted from –– or a reasonable facsimile thereof, with some artistic license taken.
It doesn't look like Agape, but it does look like Yuri Plisetsky: there's the glint in his eye that suggests he may well find some ledge to throw himself from, in order to melt this ice in a blaze of glory. While it might not suggest unconditional, divine love, it's certainly effective.
Which is what Yuri seems to be thinking, too, as he leans towards Victor and they grin at each other, Victor suddenly more curious to see Yurio's Agape than he has been since Onsen on Ice, all those months ago.
(How has it changed, how did Yurio make it his?)
Exclaiming "good!" as Yuri chimes in at the same time, before they both turn to watch Yurio step onto the ice. They were never going to ignore his performance, but Victor has to admit, it will probably be easier for Yuri to watch now that his own is finished, and so spectacularly at that. Which reminds him –– "Come on, Yuri."
Handing him the skate guards, and stooping to pluck Yuri's jacket from the chair it was on, offering it when Yuri has a free hand. "Time to go see how much you beat your personal best by."
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At Skate Canada, before the short program, they'd merely given him a few general words of advice in this moment before the clock starts for him. Keep your shoulders loose. Don't rush the step sequence. Pull the sit spin as tight as you can, or you'll lose the momentum and have to work harder to come out of it. But for some reason, there's a strange sort of urgency in their tones, and as far as he can tell they're not talking about his performance at all.
'Yuri, there's no need to be tense just because it's the Rostelecom Cup --'
'All the work you did in practice won't betray you. Listen to us and have confidence in yourself -- '
(Why are they talking like this? Is there something he's mishearing? It's too damned loud in here, all this extra noise, and it couldn't have been this noisy before, could it? It's like being in that horrible hotel banquet room again, straining to listen to what the people in front of you are saying, but it might as well be mouths moving in silence for all that he can hear properly. Is that where he is, still trapped in that suffocating crowd? That can't be right, he must be on the ice, but if they're on the ice and Yakov and Lilia are right there, then why is it so hard to hear them?)
I can't hear very well, he wants to tell to them, but his own mouth isn't moving, either. A cold trickle of sweat is tracing a thin line down his spine, like the blade of a knife against his too-warm skin, as his heart pounds in sickening escalation. Calm down. Calm the fuck down!
Suddenly, a pulse of sound, shouts and cheers, splinters the deafening silence in his head. And there's movement off to his left, in the kiss-and-cry -- a point of focus, the final outcome -- and out of pure reflex he turns his head just enough to see what's going on there.
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His skate guards go on before he takes many more steps on the ground, red and white and nothing like matching, but absolute a comfortable normality. Something solid in his hands, when he's balancing between holding the plushies and bending over to hook those guards on. The sound in the room still going on, with a brief peak of new cheering for the hometown boy as Yurio steps out behind them.
The jacket is next -- as being out, being done, having one big thing left to do, begins to actually catch up finally. Sticking his arms in and zipping it up over his outfit, while air and focus, and Victor standing there at his side, beaming brilliantly bright, is all collecting together in something more than snap, snap, snap bounces of his uncollected thoughts. They start stringing together, like lights.
That hum with sudden and undeniable electric nervousness when Victor easily implies he's already beaten his best.
There's a quick exiting shuffle through the gate of the girls who'd gone skating out to collect the flowers and gifts. They'll be waiting for later, but Yuri can't help but manage a slightly more-than-not wan smile for one of the younger girls waving a large onigiri plush at him. All of his are usually food, but the onigiri has become the signature thing his fans have latched on to and he takes it. Trading her own for the two he'd come skating off with.
Slightly because it's comforting, familiar, as grounding as anything is when he can't quite feel his feet at all still, and more than that, because the young girl, who can't be more than ten or twelve, just looks so excited and even a little bashful, dashing off with the other girls right after giving it to him and blushingly blurting something about how what he'd done was amazing.
Yuri is still blinking, when an arm gets thrown around his shoulders and the next minute there's Victor's voice and he's half walking, and half directed toward the Kiss and Cry, where all the lights and cameras and reporters are waiting. Where he sits, swallowing thick and dry down his throat, more body pieces coming with more seconds building into more minutes, and his hands are tight on the plush in his lap, as his heart starts to pound harder and harder. Just as much pushing out everything that had been coming back into focus. It's coming. It's coming. Any minute now. Any min--
Before the entire room bursts into rowdy screams and cheering again and Yuri's eyes jerk from his blurred knees up to the board with a squint. Victor's arm back around him, pulling him suddenly in against Victor's side, shouting that he did it, while his own mouth drops open at the 109.97 on the screen above, under his name. He beat his record. He did. He beat it. By two points, three points. He can't remember. The crowd is cheering. Victor's laughter is in his ears.
And he's first again. By something like a twenty point margin.
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